Kat's Playbook

As I begin to plan my Dearest A's bachelorette party, I am reminded of just how happy I am for her and her soon-to-be-hubby.  I was even lucky enough to have my very first photo shoot with them and play  around with some pictures.

1.  She Must Light Up - You know it when you see it.  And it's not that they are all over each other and sitting on eachothers laps in public (which by the way I cannot freaking stand...Find another chair people - it's not that hard!!), but it's more her glow...her smile....her presence...now that he is present in her life.   I know, its a little old school or perhaps the intro to Adventures-of-Babysitting, but just as Elisabeth Shue did, I picture my BFF draping the curtains over her head singing "And Then He Kissed Me".... simply because he is in her life. 

2.  He Treats Her Like A Princess - Didn't we all daydream at one point in our lives  that we would be swept away by a strong and handsome prince (perhaps wearing a gator jersey or jockey shirt)??  But I have to be honest, that reality should never go away.  This does not mean that my BFFs need to live the Bach lifestyle and go on helicopter rides or Pretty Women shopping sprees for every date.  It just means that there should never be a doubt in my mind whether my BFFs are loved and treated....like a princess.

3.  If the situation were to arise where that BFF's boy and I were to spend 24 hours together...we better have a Damn Good Time - So what all does this entail?  Well, he must have a sense of humor, preferably with a lot of sarcasm.  He must be able to carry on a conversation...I don't have time or energy to deal awkward silence.  And he shall love sports...or at least be passionate about some sort of entertainment.  I cannot be bothered with 24 hours of philosophical talk, and even though our conversations may be deep into the meaning of life at some point...I want the comfort to know that we can just simply talk about the big game.

You & I have been through a lot.  And I know that it was really hard for you to see your other half  influenced by an awful huge mass, become ineffective, and then officially removed.  That kind of separation can be hard on anyone.  But Remaining Thyroid, I need more from you, and I am not sure how else to ask.  

I feel as though our relationship is so one-sided.  I try to keep moving forward, and you refuse to give me anything back.  I even started to help you out with some meds.  But I still think you can do more than that.  Our relationship deserves more than that.  And it's time for me to be selfish and say that I deserve more than that. 

Remaining thyroid, I am just so tired.  Tired of this current status and I want to have just one day without 5 hour energies, gallons of coffee, or emergency naps.  And more than anything I want to run again, the kind of running I did to train for marathons.  I know this is a lot for you to handle right now, but honestly, I'm surprised you haven't picked up on how I am feeling and made changes on your own.  

I am not sure what else to say, except I really need you try to make this work.  You need to produce your best effort and really make our relationship a priority.  Or else, I am going to have to completely replace you with meds or maybe even some day remove you all together.  Trust me, I do not want to go to those measures, but I am just not sure how much longer I can do this.  

I hope you take this letter seriously and more than anything, I am here for you.